A love poem from a narcissist
It was love at first sight.
You captured my attention
From across the room.
I caught your eye and
with a sly comment,
Your interest.
I drew you closer
Like a magnet, pulled you in
I peered deep into your eyes
And managed to touch your soul.
You let me in
And I loved it.
Finally, someone who got me.
Someone who saw me
Someone who would love me
Unconditionally
You became my mirror
I liked what I saw.
Even in light of my flaws
You didn’t reject me
You offered me space to become
Without forcing your agenda
Until my selfishness
Became too much.
The cracks started showing
A façade can only stand so long
You saw me for what I truly am
Your hurt disguised as anger
With me as cause, effect and cure
Until I wasn’t.
You picked up your chin
Put your shoulders square to mine
Reclaimed your dignity
walked away from me
Just as elegant as when you walked in.
I hated you.
Now, you simply pity me
While I try to stymie you
You refuse to play my game
I almost want to admire you
If my ego’d let me, I would.
I still hate you.
In you, I found myself.
I ate your soul
Became your beauty.
I sensed your vulnerability
Played the character
You wanted.
You are not my perfect reflection anymore
Because you reflect back the truth
And I am far too flawed to face myself
Embrace myself.
I love the image I’ve made
Don’t tear it down.
I’ll walk away
Pretend it was my choice to leave
Make you out to be the damaged one.
But I hate that we both know the truth
I was never
Good enough for you.